Letting Go

"...G-d is up to something really cool," that's what my youth pastor told me in his email the Sunday before last when I first emailed him asking for help. It's also what my counselor told me at our first meeting when I was out to lunch with her today.
"A day, like today, that is really hard, might one day be looked back on as a special day. Meaning you letting go and asking for help could lead to healing and a new outlook on things down the road."
That Sunday was such an emotional day for me, the break up and finally reaching out for help, that by the time I got to that part of my youth pastor's email late that night, I burst into uncontrollable tears. It was a bittersweet day. I was crying because he was...right. He was right.
It's time to let go. I need to stop living in the "what ifs" of how it could have been and the "what ifs" of how it might all turn out. It's time to let go. And letting go means a lot of things. "Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go." Herman Hesse said that.

To 'let go' does not mean to stop caring;
it means I can't do it for someone else.

To 'let go' is not to cut myself off;
it is the realization that I must not control another.

To 'let go' is not to fix;
but to be supportive.

To 'let go' is not to be in the middle
arranging all the outcomes;
but to allow others to effect their destinies.

To 'let go' is not to be protective;
it is to permit another to face reality.

To 'let go' is not to regret the past;
but to grow and live for the future.

To 'let go' is to fear less and love more.

- Author Unknown